i did'nt bring en to parkway. i decide to take care of her myself. So i brought en to matt's house. Then played wiv her sister. and ya en quite a mess in his house. Then brought en to downstairs playground and played. she had hell load of fun there. Its quite tiring following her the whole day but its worth it seeing her so happy. Then backed to matt's house. Baby changed her pampers and had her milk on matt's mom bed. And it was time to go back home. She grabbed on to the blanket and whatever its within her reach and refuse and cried loudly. But still manage to get her on matt's father car while she's still crying. Poor baby jus wanna play. Then sent baby home. Upon reaching the door, it was not dear who was the 1st to come out to get en back. how sad. Then saw dear, and i really dislike her wearing like tat but aiyah who will giv a damm bout me. they happy they do it, simple as tat. i dont even fucking wanna spent a minute there while her bro giving me tat cb look. And then heard her grandmother say wad' tiko eh' and i jus walk off dunwan pollute my ears again. Maybe its jus a few casual words u use to insult me for the sake of saying me, but hav u tot how hurtful those words can be. spoilt my nite.

After tat went 205 eat. My ciqq tis few days really running like wildfire. And brought beer as well. Non of them wanna drink liqour so i brought my own beer as it was cheaper. not used to drinking beer and vomitted back home. Now really not feeling well. I had get off all the alcohol but fucking shag now.

Today's mom birthday, i should'nt have spent money on beer. Instead i should had brought her a present. Later on i will go cp hav a walk and buy present for mom using my remaining money.

I wanna fetch dear later as i miss her hell load! But.......... tinking tat how m i treated by her family keeps me hesitating. i noe my posts are getting more and more naggy complaining bout life.
Photos will be uploaded tomoro.
i gave dear a handphone but she's not able to charge at home as her mom duno anyting bout it.but sometimes sunday she come also dont wan bring and charge. when i last time ask why u nv cor me u say scare ur mum noe. now i had gave you a handphone. u only sms-ed starting when i passed u the phone. Where's my calls and SMSes.

DEAR, what am i to u? Answer me pls.