Sank

Called Lucas.
Found out he's going for movie with eunice again.
So i went to Cathay.
Was supposed to meet Lucas first.
Because i wanna talk to both of them.
But saw Eunice first.

Then went to find Lucas.
I talked to both of them.
Lucas is'nt a bad guy afterall but i can't bear to see my most beloved with another guy.
Talked things out with both of  them.
But i still lost Eunice.

Sorry Lucas,
I know its hard to accept the fact.
Sorry Eunice,
For telling him the truth.

Sent Eunice home.
Thanks Lucas for leaving us alone for that moment.

Eunice reached home and my phone's vibrating non-stop.
Her mom, dad.
My mom,dad.

Felt so stressed and went over to Jeremy's crib for awhile.

Mom and Dad talked to me when i got home.

Im sorry for being the useless son, useless father.

I would listen to you guys.
Continue my life in the good way.
Never contact Eunice anymore.

True, Im in no position to care about her.
When i cant even care for myself.
She got her freedom.
Blame me for being the useless bum.
I could only give all i can,
But not what she want.

I do hope she would come back,
But i know its rather impossible.
So i've no choice but to continue with my life.
Eunice may not be my wife.
But fact is Jia En is still my daughter.

I'll work.
Not because i wanna earn big bucks.
Its to prove i can be useful.
Hoping you can see it.

I told Eunice in the train,
That dont come back when im happy with life in the future.
I'm taking back my words.
You can still come back anytime.

Actually after writing so much,
Im still feeling lost.