I need a break

I really feel like going overseas for awhile.
Tied down by busy shedules now.
Everything's rushing and i seriously need a break.

When im doing nothing, i was too free and life's meaningless.
When i started doing things, im over-packed.
My time management sucks!

For every little things people have done and im not happy about it,
Im trying my very best to keep my words to myself.
For every slight things, i put it heavily in heart.
Im trying my best to control myself,
But i always feel like fucking everyone off their heads.

I always looked so happy. But,
When im laughing,
Actually im sad.
When im quiet,
Im sad actually.

I dont feel like complaining anything here,
But i hate it more to keep everything to myself.
I want a listening ear,
Yet i dont trust anyone,
Therefore i hate people meddling into my life.

I always want a venting machine.
But im always everyone's venting machine.
Im not gonna be good to everyone anymore.
Unless someone reciprocated in the same way.
But no one does.
NO ONE.